Sitting in the still silence

Melancholy settles in

Stirring the room with a gloom

Unwillingly, I tremble

As thoughts of sadness hover in my mind

My heart aches

Seemingly disturbing the stillness

From deep within me

A voice cries out for rest

I yearn for comfort

But found none in the seclusion of this room

Loneliness hangs about

Not quite sure where it fits in

But somehow finds a corner to reside

Blending in with the backdrop

Staring up at the ceiling

I ponder the question, "Why?"

It's not the first time

And I'm sure it won't be the last

It's not so much that I don't understand

Or that I'm seeking an answer

But at times when I'm stumbling

I catch myself wondering

I try to ease my mind

But fail to do so

Quietly sobbing

Nursing my wounds

Not daring to whisper a word

Keeping all the pain to myself

A tear fights to push itself down my cheek

But the rest of me retaliated, refusing to let it stream down

A familiar scar is being unveiled once again

The old feelings have subsided

But the memories haven't faded away

And now those emotions are resurfacing

The fact is that a part of that pain is still buried inside

Whether or not I admit it

I cannot escape

I cannot hide

What am I to do?

How am I to cope?

My mind speaks the only solution

Leave everything in God's hands

I know in my heart that this is all I'm capable of at this moment

There's nothing more I can do

Please give me strength, my Lord and King

To carry on